On That Day Five Years Ago Songtext

I think about the slums where I'm from, folks are out there fighting over crumbs,
And I can't do a thing to assist it, the gist is, it's broke, i can't fix it
I struggled to find the truth
And the more I know I'm even more confused
Traveled the world and back and still I know no one who could walk in my shoes,
I'm searching for who I think is the enemy, but every day he reminds me more of me

So to anyone I ever did wrong,
I wish you well and pray you live long
As for me, my choice was made, way back in the day, so that's why I say

Ever wish you didn't have to wake up?
lay in bed, eyelids could stay shut
That's exactly how i'm feeling now
but i know i can't cause that's not my style
Everything I shoved in the closet is now falling out
and making a big pile
And If I don't believe that i can achieve the impossible i need to sit down.

Either outcome would be a let down got to dig deep, find self respect now
I think about the past and what i did to me
those who passed on who now live through me
I hesitated to take action,
and living like a coward ain't cracking

the more I know I get more frustrated
got to press on cause we must make it
searching for who I think is my true friends
trying my best to tie these loose ends
So to anyone I ever loved
sometimes you gotta go through hell to reach heaven above

for all of the times I didn't listen
and all the friends I lost, i miss them,
the only medicine for suffering,
crime and the woes of mankind is wisdom
heard a man say the mind is a prison,
possessed on a quest trying to find religion
too much heartache
lead em to the water but cant make em partake
808s autotune and heartbreak
heart race like its in a car chase
feeling like biggie on midnight of March 8
top of the world till you staring in God's face