Your Good Days Are My Worst Days, Pt. II Songtext
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
I'm drunk at 4 AM again just trying to survive the night
You somewhere getting worshipped by a new nigga feeling right
I punched a hole in drywall 'cause I couldn't win the fight
The same hands that held you gentle now just looking for a fight
Delete your number again, put it back, delete; I'm not bright
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
I'm drunk at 4 AM again just trying to survive the night
You somewhere getting worshipped by a new nigga feeling right
I punched a hole in drywall 'cause I couldn't win the fight
The same hands that held you gentle now just looking for a fight
Delete your number again, put it back, delete; I'm not bright
I'm sleeping in the clothes I wore three days, I look a fright
You glowing in somebody's story, God you look alight
I screenshotted that shit and stared at it the whole damn night
I'm telling everybody I'm good, telling everybody right
Meanwhile I'm unraveling alone without a soul in sight
You healed and I'm the wreckage, you flew off, I lost the flight
I'm texting apologies to a number left on read tonight
Therapist said "let her go," yeah b*tch that sounds real trite
I'm swallowing my pride with cheap liquor every night, that's right
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
You thriving and that sh*t alone is driving me insane
I see you happy and it hits me like a f*cking train
I built the house you living in and you erased my name
I loved you past my limits till I wasn't sh*t, it's plain
I'm drinking just to quiet down the hurricane in my brain You cut me off so clean it's like I never caused you pain
And that's the part that breaks me, that you moved without a strain
I'm screaming at the ceiling while you walking through your lane
You told me I was toxic, maybe that's the truth, it's plain
But toxic things grow desperate when they dying in the rain
I miss you like a sickness, like a wound that won't abstain
I hate you for being happy, I hate me for the blame
I lit our whole world down and now you living in the flame
Rebuilt it for somebody else, she got the whole damn frame
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
(I ain't even mad)
Nah, I'm lying
(I'm f*cking devastated)
Go be happy
God, I wish I meant that
You glowing in somebody's story, God you look alight
I screenshotted that shit and stared at it the whole damn night
I'm telling everybody I'm good, telling everybody right
Meanwhile I'm unraveling alone without a soul in sight
You healed and I'm the wreckage, you flew off, I lost the flight
I'm texting apologies to a number left on read tonight
Therapist said "let her go," yeah b*tch that sounds real trite
I'm swallowing my pride with cheap liquor every night, that's right
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
You thriving and that sh*t alone is driving me insane
I see you happy and it hits me like a f*cking train
I built the house you living in and you erased my name
I loved you past my limits till I wasn't sh*t, it's plain
I'm drinking just to quiet down the hurricane in my brain You cut me off so clean it's like I never caused you pain
And that's the part that breaks me, that you moved without a strain
I'm screaming at the ceiling while you walking through your lane
You told me I was toxic, maybe that's the truth, it's plain
But toxic things grow desperate when they dying in the rain
I miss you like a sickness, like a wound that won't abstain
I hate you for being happy, I hate me for the blame
I lit our whole world down and now you living in the flame
Rebuilt it for somebody else, she got the whole damn frame
Your good days are my worst days
Your calm is my war
You don't even know me now
That's what's killing me more
(I ain't even mad)
Nah, I'm lying
(I'm f*cking devastated)
Go be happy
God, I wish I meant that
