Life Inside Songtext

What do I like?
I can't remember, I lost track of time
Is it December?
I don't even try
I've been fucked up for what seems like my life
When is it over?
Spaced out tonight, I won't be sober
Say that I'm fine, my heart is colder
I got so confined, I need to catch up
Fallin' behind, don't leave me like this

My life inside
Wish I could get out and go ride a bike
Head in the wind, and know what it's like
And wear my Ones like we did all the time
Please, don't remind me 'bout my life inside
I waste on my phone, sleep most the time
Wake up to texts from girls I used to like
Try not to text back, the light hurts my eyes
Smoke till I'm knocked out
I feel like I've been losin' patience, like I just have to face it
The drugs I keep replacin', for happiness that's fadin'
In truth, I start to panic
This isn't how I planned it
[?] my chances, I'll never understand it
I'm ripping off the band-aid
I faked [?]
Maybe I'll make a movie, just straight out the window
Just need somethin' different, there's couples out here kissin'
I'm out here super distant, I got no one to listen

Hit me up
Hit me up, ooh

My life inside
Wish I could get out and go ride a bike
Head in the wind, and know what it's like
And wear my Ones like we did all the time
Please, don't remind me 'bout my life inside