I. Songtext

I've been praying for somebody to replace me
I can't look into the mirror, I can't face me
I can't face me, 'cause I hate me
I've been writing to forget about my own thoughts
It is hot around my love, I got a cold heart
I can't even see the finish so I don't start
No I don't start, I just fall apart
Head in the ground everytime I walk by
Can't remember the colour of the sky
Because of her I do not want to die
Scared of the day she'll be waving me bye
How much more verses do I gotta lay?
How much more sentences I gotta say?
How much should I shout for help in a day?
'For they get that I'm not doin' okay

I don't like
Being myself, it's like
I'm someone else inside
I don't feel well, I lied I don't like
Being myself, it's like
I'm someone else inside
I don't feel well, I lied

Hiding in my room, it doesn't feel like home
Crying every time I don't know where to go
People always saying I should take it slow
I should take it slow, but I tell 'em no
Running without looking is the only way I dont think
About all my issues and the anger that it's gon' bring
Outrunning my thoughts and now it's looking like I'm going
100 miles an hour and I'm feeling like a goldwing
Looking at the skyline
Sitting at the sideline
I wish I did have more to say
I don't know if I'll find a way
Fleeing from the limelight
Floating in the nighttime
Close my eyes and drift away
I don't think I'm gon' be okay

I don't like
Being myself, it's like
I'm someone else inside
I don't feel well, I lied
I don't like
Being myself, it's like
I'm someone else inside
I don't feel well, I lied

I love you more than myself
Put the real me on the shelf
I can't be with anyone else
Baby, you're the only thing that helps