Crash Songtext

Will it always feel this way?
If I'm not numb, I feel afraid
I'm barely keeping up
Will I be enough?

Baby, just dive, free-falling
Baby, don't hide, let it begin
Oh, let it begin
And I don't wanna--

Crash, over the edge, over the edge
Crash, not just pretend, not just pretend
Crash, never again
That's what I tell myself
I'm looking for something else

I left(?) you at the chemicals
I put you on a pedestal
Alone on bad days You were always right
You said--

Baby, just dive, free-falling
Baby, don't hide, let it begin
Oh, let it begin
And I don't wanna--

Crash, over the edge, over the edge
Crash, not just pretend, not just pretend
(And I don't wanna) Crash, never again, never again
That's what I tell myself
I'm looking for something else

I am attracted to the light
And at times it can be destructive
But sometimes change is required to grow
And right after the sunset
The sky is painted a deep, rich shade of blue
That reminds me why I'm still here
And why I shouldn't give up
Because without all the pain I've felt
I wouldn't appreciate the beauty
That came afterwards
This is my Blue Hour