Sketches Of Paranoia Songtext

I never drank before, now I'm out on tour
Mama probably be ashamed if she found out more
Over confidence, I swear I hold my liquor much better than this
But last night dammit I was reckless as shit
I started with a condom but she pulled that shit off
And I just kept goin' I just went in it raw
At the black kat table we started our match-making
Hotel keys exchanged and next was your back breaking
And here I am in Vegas I'm gambling more than chips
I pray my dick don't fall off in the morning and I'm sick

I think I'm paranoid, I'm feeling paranoid
They lookin' at me like they know it, are they clairvoyant?
I'm back to normal in a couple days
But I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays

Ay look inside my guilty conscious
When I get to heaven's doors, I ain't knockin'
It seems I'm caught the allure, gotta get back to my humble ways
I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays Look inside my guilty conscious
When I get to heaven's doors, I ain't knockin'
It seems I'm caught the allure, gotta get back to my humble ways
I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays
One day I'ma get it right

My nigga missed his pops, he been locked for 20 years
Used to write him from the block, all his letters bout the block
He would tell him bout his peers, the niggas that was poppin'
The chemist on the block, he ain't leave em many options
And in turn he learned from em
Got him some dirt but the earth he earned from it
Now its been months and my nigga ain't heard from him
But Harlem the hottest, say they coppin' the birds from em
I'm like, "Learn from it"
You headin' down the path your father did
He said, "Nigga you ain't my pops, I'm getting it how I live"
Hustle's only hustle, nigga hustlers employ their kids
Senior out on parole, Junior just caught a bid
That's 20 more
Plenty more times, am I paranoid?
Did he make the wrong decisions? Did he have a choice?
Ain't nobody speakin' for him, do he have a voice
He ain't on my TV screen, not on my city dreams
Get a HBO special, 'How to make it in America'
Facing your devils, your devils
Why you make the sun set when you made your son settle
How you live with yourself, yourself?

Look inside my guilty conscious
When I get to heaven's doors, I ain't knockin'
It seems I'm caught the allure, gotta get back to my humble ways
I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays
Look inside my guilty conscious
When I get to heaven's doors, I ain't knockin'
It seems I'm caught the allure, gotta get back to my humble ways
I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays
One day I'ma get it right

60 miles an hour headed for that wall
Over the edge of the cliff is all I saw
No revelations, no flashin' white lights
I'm thinkin' me and Jesus finna reunite
I almost died tryin' make this
And God must've wrote in the stars
Cause shit, man I just totalled my car
All I'm thinkin' bout is how I'm out here chasin' bad bitches
What happened to that Chi boy and all my class pictures
Lord if you hear me got a couple last wishes
I'm tryin' make it home but I'm swingin' at bad pitches
Dear Lord, I just wanna be a better man
Get a good woman, inspire my ghetto friends
This put my life in perspective that it's never been
Watch me fly to Neverland, I will never land
Man, I pledge allegiance
I stand for those that can't stand for themselves
Like paralegals for paraplegics
Now I know who I am, yeah I'm quiet and stubborn
I'm on lightning and thunder, ignored vice from the dumbest
See I used to wanna be the best rapper in the booth
But the best rapper is just the best actor, so I rather give you truth
I'm 32 years old still round here on the loose
It's never too late and trust me nigga I'm the proof
Never be afraid, never be a slave to what these niggas say
Cause don't nobody know, when its your time to go
I'm chasin' dreams till I see the coffin, that's fosho
And if I die broke, that's oh be it my nigga
But I can't guarantee that I'ma see it my nigga
They tell me that it's really done
And I guess that makes sense cause I'm the rarest one

Now look inside my guilty conscious
When I get to heaven stores, I ain't knockin'
It seems I'm calling Neolore, gotta get back to my humble ways
I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays
Look inside my guilty conscious
When I get to heaven stores, I ain't knockin'
It seems I'm calling Neolore, gotta get back to my humble ways
I repeat the same mistakes and so the trouble stays
One day I'ma get it right