Not The Way It Is Songtext

I should write her a letter I suppose I should write her a letter What the hell? What the hell will I tell her That she would want to hear But that she deserves to hear And I end up protesting what she can bear Do I come up with a reason Or am I inventing a reason Something with so many pieces That the only thing that's clear If there's anything that's clear Is whatever was is no longer here Wait until what I should say And maybe go away, but that's not the way it is And I hope she'll understand, Even though I know I may never see her again I could hope, and I could wish and I could pray But that doesn't really change a thing And if I see her, I don't know if I could watch And what there was turned into God knows what So, so what about that letter? Not that it could make anything better The fact is, I feel like a coward Pretending what happened hadn't And nothing ever would, despite the fact it did Could it be erased without rubbing it in her face? Wait until what I should say Would maybe go away, but that's not the way it is And I hope she'll understand, Even though I know I may never see her again