Me And My Machine Gun Songtext

When I woke up the feel insane me
Will my (?) upon that place?
I was shocked to see how deep the trenches
Dug into my face

A minute (?) I was on my hands and knees
Choking on the pill I swallowed, I could hardly breathe
My heart's messed tonight, can't keep it beating right
I found (?) word with myself such a wall
On the battlefield, I'm searching of something I can feel