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Everything I did I always gave it my best I don't know if anyone relates but the feeling that I get is like a truck sitting on my chest Wondering how much do I got left My last call, my last step I'm not gonna wait just to see what's next I go hard 'cause today could be my last breath We do life and we can't relive it We only get one chance, if you blink, then you might just miss it Many people come and go, they all just visit Don't ever expect nothin' different Just listen as I paint this image that you all revisit Yeah my glass half empty but I still might sip it I was traumatized What would you have said when you was looking in my momma's eyes? Nothin' Yeah, I might have said I was okay but I probably lied So this pain is how I harmonize Making impact, that's what I personify Yes, I'm making music that you cannot just define by the numbers on my Spotify All of this pain I just wanna be happy Momma almost died the same day that she had me Driving to the hospital, she swerved and crashed badly Doctor said I was a miracle while looking at my daddy I was zero when I first dodged death I was six when the devil told me to watch my step Couldn't sleep, I was scared to go inside my bed Fighting demons, I was hearing things inside my head SongtexteSo back to the doctor, he didn't have a diagnosis So my whole damn life I felt lost while fighting psychosis Talking to myself hoping nobody would notice Mom said "pray" every time I heard the voices Life or death, every day I swear I made choices Knife in my hand trying not to lose focus Playing basketball religiously to drown out the noises, man Let me explain that it's like laying on train tracks Grabbing guns contemplating blowing your brain back Eyes closed shut watching everything fade black People stepping over you, you feel like a placemat, fuck And let me make it clear, God is the only one that I've ever feared But you start to get paranoid and look over your shoulder when these people have been hurting you for so many years So I had to escape If you listening I know that you relate Is that feeling that you get like your life and existence was all just one big mistake I felt trapped and I couldn't find space I went and got lost in the things I create Ever since I was a kid, people hated and they judged everything that I did So I went into my mind and created the abyss Man, I swear I did, how the hell y'all think I make all these hits? It's 'cause I've been broken, beaten, dragged, laughed at, scorned, burned, and kicked So I get to reach in this endless pit of hurt and pain from all that shit And that's the only reason that your people come here or for God's sake even know that Dax exists This is how it feels to drown, this is how it looks when you're lost and you can't be found The abyss was a place I'd visit, but I went so much that I'm gone and I'm stuck here now This is not music, this is not dope, this is me begging y'all to throw me a rope (Help me!) So I can try to climb up the place where I came in my life when I spiral then first lost hope Let me explain, I've been Dax so long I got PTSD when somebody says my real name But I guess that's the price you pay I didn't want it to be like this, but I guess it is what it is Inside the abyss Aus Songtexte Mania