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Yeah, Lately I’m hurtin’ the people who love me the most Damn, My emotions take over it’s something I can’t control I look in the mirror Like where’s the me I used to know? Because right know, I can use him the most Yeah, I can use him the most Damn, when did my heart become so bitter and cold? (cold) When did I start walking down this lonely road? (road) There’s parts of my life that I’m too afraid to show There’s parts about me I’m embarrassed to know When they stop caring, I started carrying this load No one understands what my life is like I’m still looking out for the brightest night I been fighting so much that when I try to write I’m paralyzed, and I feel stuck inside my mind You fear that I’m going crazy, I think I just might You should probably stay away and take my advice I been through dark days, I can’t find a light If you look at me you wouldn’t see a sign of life I don’t know how I got this way, I just am this way Judge all you want, you don’t know my pain Depression got me feelin’ like I can’t be saved No I can’t be saved So what if I said, “fuck it” and picked up a gauge, and pressed the trigger to my head and blast my brains Acting like you were there for me SongtexteNot care for me When I’m gone and I’m in my grave (fuck) Lately I just wonder if I’ll come around Cause I don’t wanna lose me I’m sorry that I’m falling and I’ve let you down But I don’t wanna lose me I’m falling I’m falling I fell again (I fell) (I fell) (I fell) I fell I fell I’m falling again I need therapy to figure out what my problem is I’m done going online, It’s eating away at my confidence It’s like I search for the hate, and ignore all the compliments I’m done reading the comments ‘cause I’m getting tired of it Yeah, man, I’m getting tired of it Damn, When I’m being me I feel like I’m being somebody else (Else) I’m surrounded by people l, but feel like there’s nobody else (Else) Nobody comes to rescue me when I’m calling for help I swear my mind is a tormented place, I sit and I dwell, hammering the nail How the fuck did I garner millions of comments of people telling me I’m great? But I don’t believe it, But I believe in the ones giving me hate It’s like I look for validation for an idea in my mind that I already made When did I tell myself I wasn’t worthy, I’m undeserving The critics hurt me, I feel like I’m fake I swear my mind is a trap and my heart is the prey Someone take my social media away I’m online for days I read and I raise There’s nothing to say I’m losing my way I’m losing my strength I’m losing my faith My insecurities that keep me awake I’m stuck in a paradigm that I know that I’ve been dying to escape Lately I just wonder if I’ll come around Cause I don’t wanna lose me I’m sorry that I’m falling and I’ve let you down But I don’t wanna lose me I’m falling I’m falling I fell again (I fell) (I fell) (I fell) I fell I fell I’m falling again Yeah, I’m at war with myself, I’m battling me everyday And, I never win, this is a battle of strength I overthink till I’m numb, I think I need a break Because right know, I’m losing my way Yeah, I’m losing my way Yeah, I’m causing my misery, maybe I’m the one to blame (blame) If I feel sorry, that means I don’t gotta change (change) I’m dealing with demons, that I wasn’t willing to face I was looking for fame to try to cover the fact, that I’m an act I can’t run from my mistakes I’m running from myself, but obviously running away from me is so worthless I had to rip open my soul, and I had to look way deeper under the surface I should’ve been me, but instead of being me I was too busy trying to be perfect Now they want me to be perfect Fake and it’s become a burden I’m, losing my patience, going through phases I fucking hate myself Why I am chasing, using my fame when, I can't escape myself I’m feeling anxious, who do I blame when, I can’t blame myself Fans said I saved them, How can I save them? I can’t save myself, fuck Lately I just wonder if I’ll come around Cause I don’t wanna lose me I’m sorry that I’m falling and I’ve let you down But I don’t wanna lose me I’m falling I’m falling I fell again (I fell) (I fell) (I fell) I fell I fell I’m falling again Aus Songtexte Mania