Jandek

I Know My Name
Take this big picture awayI want to be with the little thingsPain and suffering anguish is my namejust call me anythingbut I know my nameI came to deliver a what you wantThis pain and anguishI sat at your door"Hello my darling, why don't you let me in?"Thank you, thank youI know you'll love meAnd I love, I learned to love youbecause I had no choice.You got me in moldand you, I got no choiceand I don't want onebecause I choose youand that's my choicebecause you love mePain, dark and miseryI want to be with little thingsplease take this big picture away from meTake it back from where it cameLet it crawl on the floor and find those little thingsLike a ray of sunshine at the end of the dayand good night all of you folksSongtexteI'm off to a dream where it dances and playsand sways.The change of those little thingsYou thought you saw it bright and hardYou steeled it down cast your eyes aboutI done conquered this thingwhat's next on the listCome on you big thingsand establish a jungle all around your siteNothing can really bind youYou'll kill it firstI love you my darlingYou know my nameYou don't want to get awayyou got where you're goingIt's the step into spaceYou know you can't refuseThere is no doubtand it sparkles like light bouncing off the silver metal on the tablein the big picture with red and blue and green and blackI'm back at this tableand I'm gambling with youBut you're not even hereI lose if I don't winand I always liked losing becausesometimes later you get to beat yourself againsay "Hi, how'd you do self Yeah I remember youwe went through many placesIf we went or didn't goYou win"I always lose because I love to loseSomeone's got to be on the other side of a got to winMaybe we're left and right I got to losin if you don't make me losethen you're the same as meyou got to lose andhey we can lose togetherLet's lose everything and go away we'll be real lostand if that's your thingYou lost and so did IWe lost togetherNow we're both more lost yeahI'm so lost you can't find meThere's no other souls in this epiphanySo I'm gambling your fictitiousMr. Gambling Please meet Mrs. FictitiousWe'll curse the world yeah...curse you worldYou brought me so low today I'm happy to curse you worldGet the hints from meand don't put me in no black suitI ain't building no barnsYou can keep your animalsBut put me dark and eviland I forget about you the bad things got me when I went their wayAnd all I screech from so withinthat you can't hear meAnd I so like my pain and forget about everythingthe universe is goneIt's stopped the time and I escape into the little worldwhere there's nothing elseI have no responsibilitiesIt's just money and thingsand I hate most of the dayBut when the sun goes downI get a lifeThe afterglow of the day I got enough pain without my bodyI throw my body away and make it a slave to meI got a body for a slaveIt do what I want it doesn't thinkIt so don't feel like you're lost nowbecause I found youand I put you up on my thumbsour eyes are dancing in the late day sunand you are getting aggressiveand you know meI'm deadTake this big picture awayI want to be with the little thingsPain and suffering anguish is my nameJust call me anythingbut I know my nameI came to deliver what you wantThis pain and anguishI sat at your door"Hello darling, won't you let me in thank you thank you I know you love me"and I loveI learned to love youbecause I had no choiceYou got me involved in youI got no choiceand I don't want oneBecause I choose youand that's my choicebecause you love mePain dark and miseryDown down down down downI won't stop going downand wherever you areyou got to know I'm heredown at the bottomI'm here so if you visit meyou've got to be down at the bottom tooWhat you doing here?This is my placeWhy did you disturb me?I'm lying so low I don't want you to find me nowWhat do I do?I feel so nakedBut you still got your clothes onYou got me stripped to my skinI've never felt so apparentLike a mirror you seeI can't get away from this worldAt least once every three million yearsBut I'm here now, take advantage me nowIf you don't I'll be away so fastI'm gone on my last dreamI'm I'm conscious right nowsaying thank you for blackness and the gone gone worldIt was the Frenchman and the Indian they said "Hello, how are you, I give you my world"Let's play the sand and water and forestWe welcome you here, take my daughterand marry herThe seed was planted that got me into this worldI use electricity just like you doBut the treatment has got me fast falling into youI'm so happy to fall I hope I never riseWhat's going down is my joyful rideand I've been walking for decadesPain is such a relief and I'm feeling better nowthat I'm hurt so badJust leave me alone for a thousand yearsI'll make myself wholebut I'll take my timeYou had your enjoymentnow I'll have mineI feel happy without youThe pain is just fineBecause I found someone who loved that pain and I gave it to herNow she's infected with the painthat goes roundAnd when you share it thank god for this painI thank God for my stupidity which brings me painI love my painIt gives me my nameBut the light that still flickersis still there when you're goneI flicker in that light Aus Songtexte Mania