Dependence Songtext
sometimes it feels like

i'm wasting away

in this life



i've taken a hand full of pills
but i'm still here

and i don't know why



i wish that i could say

i'd like to think that

it means i'll find my purpose someday



and i've been cheated on

i've been turned into dust

i've been stomped so hard by deception and mistrust


but i'm still alive and my heart is beating

and i know that every love i've encountered

is fleeting



and every time i crack that seal

the bottles opened and i feel

that i've found a release



like it is something

that was specifically

made for me



i know it's not but i like to pretend

i love the idea

that i'm slowly putting my life to an end



and i have dreams with people and situations

i awake screaming some nights

i wonder if it's from all the complications



i'm finding comfort in being alone

it's by far the most prominent feeling

that i've ever known



if i talk to just one stranger a day

it's too much for me

i'd rather stay away



alone in my room

with my music and cold

i love it so much it never seems old



but when a beaming light of a girl appears

all that desolation

turns into fear



and i can't help but feel lost when i find

someone that makes me

completely lose my mind



fearing loneliness i latch onto love

but instead i should flee

like a single white dove



there's no way to replace my mistakes

they continually happen

and eventually replicate



and i drink myself right into the ground

when i've lost

whatever treasure i think i have found



so i try to bury

these thoughts

on paper



but a stiff drink

always

seems safer